Black Bamboo

2009-09-18T10:18:00.002+08:00

I hope im not pushing too much. tonight's dinner is just pure friends outing. nothing more... go slow idiot, GO SLOW.

im chipping the walls around my heart bit by bit now. *hugs PP, you are just too adorable.*

2009-08-31T10:26:00.002+08:00

Its been like what, 18days from that incident. And i dreamed of her on sat and sun. argh. i just hope that she is fine and happy. =)

Monday inspiration.

"DANCE as though no one is watching you,
LOVE as though you have never been hurt before,
SING as though no one can hear you,
LIVE as though heaven is on earth."

signing out

2009-08-23T09:24:00.003+08:00

afterall, i went to watch the movie Up by myself. Overall, it is a very lighthearted and funny movie. however, for viewer like me who went in with a broken heart, experienced more pain than laughter.

I was crying most and trying to control myself most of the time. yes i did laugh at certain parts of the movie as it was really very funny. but, just the first 15mins was enough to make me breakdown again.

i hate myself.

2009-08-21T08:45:00.000+08:00

aiyo...

she slept at near 4am last night... how can she endure all these... she will eventually tired herself out... dear, please drink more water please...

2009-08-20T23:56:00.002+08:00

this moment, last week, i was somewhere else. praying for a forgiveness.

now, i pray for her happiness and health.

2009-08-20T13:04:00.003+08:00

its been 1 week since that day.

it seems like 1 year though. the pain is still here. lets all welcome a new member, numb. she finally offered to breakup with me on tuesday. cant blame her, i gave her too much suffering.

真的好想你，希望我在泰国需的愿望会实现。就是你平平安安，身体健康。我什么都不要了，会不会中4D or TOTO. 可能忘了我会更好吧？

2009-08-17T18:39:00.000+08:00

我真的知错了，原谅我好不好?

2009-08-17T13:32:00.002+08:00

Of all the things I have learned in my lifetime, the one with the greatest value is that unexpected kindness is the most powerful, least costly and most underrated agent of human change. Competition will improve quality and lower costs. Confidence will enable us to climb a mountain instead of a molehill. But kindness that catches us by surprise brings out the best in our natures.

A quote i got from the "Monday inspirations" i received weekly from my HR. lol

Unexpected kindness.

2009-08-17T10:39:00.003+08:00

Oh nice. exactly one year of MIA.

I lost count of how long i have not visited this place.

But the counter shot to 3k? Hmmm.

Im sorry to all the visitors for not updating my blog.

If you are following this, I just want to let you know i miss you alot. Hope you will take good care of yourself!

Now, back to work!

2008-09-29T14:07:00.002+08:00

Hey..

Been a long time since i last updated.

Taken from tancy.

interesting survey.

Bolded answers are TRUE.

General
- I am 5'4 or shorter
- I think i'm ugly.
- I have many scars.
- I tan easily.
- I wish my hair was a different colour.
- I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
- I have a tattoo. thinking of getting one of my shoulder blade though.
- I am self-conscious about my appearance.
- I have/had braces.
- I wear glasses.
- I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
- I've been told i'm attractive by a complete stranger.
- I have had more than two piercings.
- I have had piercings in places besides my ears.
- I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
- I've sworn at my parents.
- I've run away from home.
- I've been kicked out of the house.
- My biological parents are together.
- I have a sibling less than one year old.
- I want to have kids someday.
- I have children.
- I've lost a child.

Embarrassment
- I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
- Disney movies still make me cry.
- I've snorted while laughing.
- I've laughed so hard i've cried.
- I've glued my hand to something.
- I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
- I've had my trousers rip in public.
- I've had stitches.
- I've broken a bone.
- I've had my tonsils removed.
- I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
- I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
- I've had serious surgery.
- I've had chicken pox.

Travelling
- I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
- I've been on a plane.
- I've been to north america.
- I've been to niagara falls.
- I've been to japan. next year, maybe?
- I've been to europe.
- I've been to africa.

Experiences
- I've been lost in my city.
- I've seen a shooting star.
- I've wished on a shooting star.
- I've seen a meteor shower.
- I've gone out in public in my pyjamas.
- I've pushed all the buttons in a lift.
- I've been to a casino.
- I've been skydiving.
- I've gone skinny dipping.
- I've played spin the bottle.
- I've crashed a car.
- I've been skiing.
- I've been in a play.
- I've met someone in person from the internet.
- i've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
- I've seen the northern lights.
- I've sat on a roof top at night.
- I've played chicken.
- I've seen the rocky horror picture show.
- I've eaten sushi.
- I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
- I'm single.
- I'm in a relationship.
- I'm available.
- I'm engaged.
- I'm married.
- I've gone on a blind date.
- I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
- I have a fear of abandonment.
- I've been divorced.
- I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
- I've told someone I loved them when i didn't.
- I've told someone I didn't love them when i did.
- I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
- I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.
- I've kissed a member of the same gender.
- I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender.
- I've had sex with someone of the same gender.
- I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
- I am a cuddler.
- I've been kissed in the rain.
- I've had sex outdoors.
- I've hugged a stranger.
- I have kissed a stranger.
- I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/crime - Oh shi.. lol
- I've done something i promised someone else i wouldn't.
- I've done something i promised myself i wouldn't.
- I have lied to my parents about where i am.
- I am keeping a secret from the world.
- I've cheated while playing a game.
- I've cheated on a test.
- I've driven through a red light.
- I've been suspended from school.
- I've witnessed a crime.
- I've been in a fist fight.
- I've been arrested.
- I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol
- I've consumed alcohol.
- I have/do smoke cigarettes.
- I have/do smoke pot.
- I regularly drink.
- I've taken painkillers when i didn't need them.
- I take cough medication when i'm not sick.
- I've done hard drugs.
- I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
- I can't swallow pills.
- I can swallow about five pills at a time no problem.

Random
- I can sing well.
- I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
- I open up to others too easily.
- I watch the news.
- I don't kill bugs.
- I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme.
- I fucking swear regularly.
- I sing in the shower.
- I am a morning person.
- I paid for my mobile phone ring tone.
- I'm a snob about grammar. - ?? I suck at english as a general
- I am a sports fanatic.
- I play with my hair.
- I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
- I love being neat.
- I love spam.
- I've copied more than 30 cds in a day.
- I bake well.
- My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. - white and blue
- I don't know how to shoot a gun.
- I am in love with love.
- I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
- I laugh at my own jokes.
- I eat fast food weekly.
- I believe in ghosts.
- I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
- I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
- I am really ticklish.
- I love white chocolate.
- I bite my nails.
- I play video games.
- I'm good at remembering faces.
- I'm good at remembering names.
- I'm good at remembering dates.
- I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
- My answers are totally honest.

lol.

enjoy your week, and selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all my muslim friends.

2008-08-14T15:02:00.003+08:00

Well.

Friday was a heart breaking moment for my relatives, especially my 3rd, 4th aunt and i dont know why, my mum. for the first time in my life, i witnessed a relative who got cremated in a temple. the above mentioned cried their hearts out when the small metal gate opened up and gave way to my grandma.

Took compassionate leave on mon, thurs and friday. Monday was the first day of my grandma's funeral. All the sons, daughters, grandsons and granddaughters attended her wake in tampines which was held at the void deck of the HDB flat. it was located beside the big field opposite TP. well, it was good to see my relatives once again, as i had not seen them for near 5~7yrs. yup, that includes CNY.

i had that nostalgic feeling when i saw them, it was like as if, we gathered together, for CNY to visit grandma. but this time, we visited grandma for the last time. how sad is that? then my 2nd aunt's son(cousin?) got these priests to come send my grandma on her last journey. she was a teow chew by dialect, so most of the prayers were in that.

half way through, the priest stood on this small bridge and sang in teow chew. i didnt really understand what he was trying to sing, but my 3rd, 4th aunt and my mum startd sobbing. i was like, ah? what happened? it was only made known to me when i got home, that the priest was singing my grandma's life story. how she thought that she would live to 100, but only 88, etc etc. my mum also told me that, the priest saw my grandma by the bridge. he added that my grandma didnt know she passed away until she saw us in those clothing.

on friday, everyone gathered again and all were ready to send my grandma off. you know, those ppl walking in front with vans, while several big buses at the back. didnt really have to walk very far, then we boarded the bus and set off to kong meng san temple located at bright hill road.

before my grandma was cremated, my sister asked me to shout in hokkien, "ah ma, ging chao!". meaning, grandma, faster run away! she explained that by doing so, it will wake my grandma up from the body and escape from the fire. this way, only the physical body will be burnt, but not her soul. well, my sister shouted that sentence when the gate opened, while some of them cried, hard.

then after everything, we went back to tampines and had our lunch at the void deck. to me, its "the last" gathering for all of us. cos there isnt any reason for us to gather anymore, as my grandparents passed away. oh well. shrugs.

painful week lol. personally, i was kinda affected, while going thru the rituals, i looked at my grandma for the last few times and almost cried too, but i fought back. it was.. really heart-wrenching for me. just like my colleague's funeral, totally cant control myself. and i reminded myself, i cant let that happen again..

Ah ma, 放心上路.

We will miss you.

2008-08-05T14:08:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Life's all good. Been working in Seagate(Science Park) for near a year and one month. Great learning experience. Will try for part time uni-studies in nus/sim/nus for 2009. failed to enter during 2005&2006.

My grandma(father side) passed away last night @ 1am. =/

Come to think of it, i DO miss her. tho i didnt breakdown/cry as compared to the one i had for my colleague's funeral. i would only visit her during the CNY period, where i collected up to 300(?)+- hongbao from her when police were wearing hot pants. ever since, i love going to her house. my fave food, watch tv, play with my cousins/nephews/whoever(i dont really socialize, you guys shld know. so, "play" is just a word to fill it in there).

but until the time before i entered NS, my family just stopped going over, for god knows why. all i knew was, my parents were not on good terms with some of my uncles and aunties. it was last night, when i finally know what was the main reason behind it. i also got to learn about the small colour cloth you need to pin on your right arm, which generation should wear which:

son/daughter of deceased: brown
grandson/granddaughter of deceased: blue(me)
great grandson/ great granddaughter of deceased: green

if you see a colour on top of another: this person is the husband of the deceased's daughter.

so, last night, all i did was drowning myself with peanuts and packet drinks. when i saw my relatives, i had this nostalgic feeling, as if we were all gathered once again for CNY. however, this time was for my grandma's funeral. i took half day leave on this thurs and one full day on fri, where i will be walking her for the last time.

when i was a kid, i cant really communicate well in hokkien with her. but now... lol. oh well. its a good thing too ya? her journey ends here. she will be starting on a new one soon. =]

2008-06-17T17:29:00.001+08:00

Yo.

Doubt anyone reads my blog after MIA for so long eh? like what, two months? ^^

Well. Life's busy i suppose.

I hope i can post a looooooooooooong one on this. Time check: 1727. Time to go home: 1730. :o

Last posted here on the April 08, What was i doing, anyone remembered what they did two months back? Spending time with your love ones? Enjoying some great blockbuster movie? Or just window shopping down in Orchard Road?

Actually, i forgotten what i did, heh. *shrugs*

All i can say is, life's great. More downs than up, but one must learn to recover from falls, FAST. or sayonara to you, baby.

Recovering from illness is something anyone CANT force. You have to take it slow and easy. Just have your regular rests/sleeps, drown yourself with lots of water. You are set, i guess.

Busy with work, trying to learn as much as possible. Trying to OT as much as possible. Trying to get the panda eyes AS FAST AS POSSIBLE. Seriously, i havent been catching up with "Zhou Gong" for the past six months. Gaming, work, trying to catch up with life aint going to give me time to rest ya?

one more month and i have worked in Seagate for one year. What have i learnt? LOTS, i tell you. regards to computer hard/software i guess. how it works, the mechanics of drives and
stuffs, its great. loving it.

*colleague walks in to hurry me to go home* Time check: 1733

Um.. what else.. oh, one more week to ICT. haaaaaaaaaa. fun fun FUN! kinda far from my house tho =/

i also recommended a poly friend of mine into my company. i will have monetary(sp) award =3
now you know why i love this job eh? haha

still maintaining my short term memory. just as bad as usual.

*colleague stands @ door, staring at me* Time check: 1736. HE'S FAST! hahaah

oh well, will update tml, ya?

i promise. love you guys.

2008-04-09T08:06:00.000+08:00

Kelvin O:

A friend.
A colleague.
A person who likes to drink milk and soya bean related.
A smoker.
A quiet and humorous friend.
A pool player.

A friend who passed away yesterday, 8 Apr 08.

sigh. life's short, isnt it? tho i known him for only ~8mths, i still feel the pain.

argh, life sucks. he still havent pass his IPPT.... so many things he have yet to achieve...

2008-03-10T09:01:00.000+08:00

Last week was rather tiring. So many things that happened and what could possibly go wrong, just WENT wrong. wtf. zzz

nevertheless, i hope all will turn out for the better for the next few months!

I just went for a cub scouts(primary sch scouts) last night in east coast pri sch. I was one of the two hosts. haha, its been a while i last joined any scouting events, including hosting a campfire. zz. ok la, the overall feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel was still there. sure miss those days when i was a scout in bds. =/

the pri schs that attended was, temasek, telok kurau , red swastika, feng shan and east coast . i had to tune my mindset to the same level as those brats. so.... kidish ~_~ lol. not used to it, but i definitely enjoyed myself =b

as usual, the clearing up of the firepit was a disaster. the drain grills, hot burning embers, blah blah. we had around eight to ten people(leaders, not scouts nor ventures) to clear the leftovers.

best part, i am assigned the chairman for the east area(forgot if its east area or district) campfire... hmmm. well, this is definitely something i nv done b4, as in chairman of such a big event. and ill be assessed on this project of mine. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

good luck man. i need it =b

New system up and running

2008-02-28T08:09:00.001+08:00

Yup.

Now i have two computers in my room(which is gonna be damn hot in the coming yrs)

The reason i bought an additional computer is because of the recent(few months back) hackings that took place in my current game, Final Fantasy 11. the numbers of accounts that were hacked, reached up to like, 3400~. woot. so far, i dont have any friends who got hacked. hence, i decided that i should play game on my current com, and surf net on the new one. It was a pain, i tell you.

It took me near a month to get this new computer up and running. Why? I tried to use my old motherboard but it kept having issues detecting and stuffs, bah. cant be bothered. now that its up, im quite satisfied.

but! i also installed another 80GB HDD in my gaming rig(aka computer), which i installed new OS into it.

and as a result... my game cant function properly. cos the registry(something like "path) of my game is tied down to the old OS and not the newly installed one. soooooooooooooooooo, i had to reinstall. the reinstall part was kinda short, but painful.

however, the verifying of 20,000 files and downloading them... priceless. 3hrs? in the end, i played romance of the three kingdoms 6 -.- old sch la! lol

i would say that my gaming computer is only 60% restored. i still need to move files, reroute paths of programs and stuffs. then, i can finally, stop touching them for the next few yrs. =D

2008-02-22T22:32:00.002+08:00

I realized that whenever i encounter something i dont want to find out or when i just want to simply escape from the reality. i always turn to games, be it my FF11 or other fighting games. as long as its a game that i know how to play, thats my only place to make me forget about the real life. the cruelty of Fate, how It plays with my friend's life. making me feel liking escaping from everything.

oh man, why... no... the result's not out yet, i cant give up hopes... i must brave thru...

2008-02-17T18:27:00.002+08:00

Hmmm..

This is the 2nd or 3rd week that i woke up @ 0330 on sundays to play game. What to do? They stay in America, which is almost the direct opposite timing from ours. sigh. sibei shag ah. heeelppppp

sibei stone. shit, and i realized that im starting to lose touch on my JP liao. cannot cannot, must go apply for elementry 2 le.

another 200 gonna fly liao ヽ(´ー｀)ノ

2008-02-15T08:16:00.000+08:00

Wha.

Its been like what.. 3 months that i stopped updating! lolol

Firstly, i sincerely apologize(as if still got ppl read, haha) for ppl who had been expecting me to regularly update my blog. And, i want to Thank you guys who had been visiting this lifeless blog! =D

Well, Life's good. Same ol' usual i guess. FFXI, and nothing much. I bought another computer and im reusing back my old parts. this will be used just for pure surfing of the net and stuffs while the other powerpack computer, will be just for my gaming and stricly NO internet surfing.

Why do i say so? there was 2400++ accounts hacked and i have a few friends who got targeted by these idiots. Now, i have to save my password in notepad and whenever i want to login, i will copy and paste into the password textfield, lame right? no choice. i plan to remove all internet browsers and thats it. but, my 2nd computer is giving me hell right now. tonnes of issues to solve and its annoying/irritating. argh.

I have yet to post my Resolutions for 2008, right? Hmmm, will do that in the later part of this post.

Ah, Chinese New Year. It's another boring one. i stopped visiting my relatives a few years back. Due to some bad relationships among my parents and them ba. *shrugs* Nevertheless, i didnt stop the hongbaos from flowing in! I visit ppl instead =X

happy belated Valentine's Day to all the couples and singles out there!!!!!!! Wha, another year passed. So fast la, hahaha

Oh, and did i mentioned i passed my JP class, Elementary 1? Yes yes, i know. n000000b. but seriously, i improved alot after attending this class, Bunka in Orchard. My only weakness is forming sentences with particles and stuffs. the best part? my teacher's quite pretty and she's a Japanese too la! lololol =X

Im moving on to elementary2, as it teaches past tense and stuffs. Bah, how i wish i can skip and go straight to JLPT4. =/

Work. All's well. picking up as each day passed by. got 3 more new colleagues who joined Seagate. Now, im waiting for an empty slot so that i can recommend my friend to come in. =D then we can go home together liao =3

Studies. Ya, as i told my family 4589793457th time, i wont be applying for the local unis(including sim , smu etc). I want to build up my finance first. save first, talk later. correct? i mean, come on. i know the financial status of my family and trust me, we are just struggling thru, lol.

so, yaaaaaaaaaaaaa. maybe in 09 or something, then i will apply. meanwhile, i will continue to study for my Japanese language! i have the assistance from the dictionary and book from cytan. haha, useful books, i tell you. aided me alot, thanks!

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Resolutions for this 2008!

1) Able to communicate in Japanese. (at least to a JLPT4/3 standard)
2) Obtain maat's cap by year end. estimated time to level the remaining lol*insert jobs here*.
3) TRY to be less bad tempered. I know i know, im trying la. ie, not to flare up unnecessarily.
4) Further improve on my computer skills. Both hardware and software related.
5) Talk less, do more! (so general, huh? lol)

I guess thats what i want to say, for the past 3 months. haha, but without the details =b

take care all, cheers! gonna go back to work now!

PS. im buying psp nxt mth =X just to play a cute game. i cant believe it. sigh.

2007-11-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

Seems like a long time i didnt update here.

Well, lets start from last week, shld we?

On, 13/11(tues) i went to Linkin Park concert. Man, i tell you, i was blown away. The feeling was so... extrodinary and soooooooooong la. I was seated kinda far back tho, but my N95 was able to zoom in, not as good as digital cams, but hey, 5megapixel. not bad liao =b

the person sitting on my left, seems to be a malay? or non-chinese at least. was soooooooooo quiet while waiting for the concert to start. but as the atmosphere starts to raise, he went crazy -.- He machiam "followed" me la, i scream(literally), he scream. i jump, he jump, i sang loud loud, he sang louder-.-. doh.

reached there like 1930? but it started like 2100. damn. but the waiting was worth while tho. the crowd was so crazy too la, everytime the guitarist was tuning his strings, the stadium went wild lor, assumed that the concert will start, but nah. lol

took leave for the 14. heh, went to T3. Wow, looks spacious tho, like the feel. paid $1 to enter the departure area, god knows when will i have the chance to get in there again sia. there's a wide variety of shops in there too.

on the 15/11 4am, i suddenly had running nose. out of the blue la! i thought was nth, so i didnt care so much abt it. i still went for my badmintion session with my colleagues. until the next day, wha, song bo liao. high fever, body aches etc. doc told me was seasonal flu. bah. so for that week, worked for only 2 days? >.>

to you: thanks for the wonderful dinner. really appreciated it. =D

2007-11-01T19:29:00.000+08:00

Wow.

Seems like ages i last came here to blog.

Quick updates(as usual, im not a man of long words =b)

Went for an medical appt. Doc said the seriousness of my illness is quite moderate, for my age. meaning to say, im half way thru the leader! =D

as usual, need anaesthesia to numb the area. total of 4 areas for that. hmmm. didnt know it is this serious...

Nth much happened recently tho, except for a small gathering of my close ex-classmates. was expecting quite a number of people to turn out, like the previous one we had, before i entered NS. in the end, you can count with one hand lo =X

otherwise, it's rather nice to see my frens in good shape(no, i dont mean physically) and health~ =D

One republic Ft Timberland - Apologize

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like an angel, heavens not the thing for you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologizes, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

2007-10-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

I didnt know im such a pest to you.

Ok, ill keep my distance from now on.

2007-10-10T11:31:00.000+08:00

Went for my colleague, Lewis's wedding dinner last night.

Well, it was quite a night with like, 24tables? give and take 2 tables ba.

Then i saw, Lewis's good brothers, were like, maybe a handful.

As for his wife, less than 5.

So, i was thinking, Will i only get this much brothers for my wedding? Who am i going to get? Who wish to be my so-call-"brother"? shrugs.

Damn. i had another thing to blog about, BUT I FORGOTTEN ABT IT AGAIN! DAMNNIT. someone pls change my brain.

2007-10-07T08:30:00.000+08:00

...

Early morning, my mum's asking me to help her cheeena colleagues to write resume.

hello, excuse me. anyone is ok, even tho i would still be reluctant to helpbut cheena ppl? No thanks man.

I mean, come on. its so easy to write a resume? shrugs. cant be bothered.

2007-10-03T08:34:00.000+08:00

Im very tired these few days.

So worked out, so exhausted from my current project in my company.

endure.. will be over before you know it...

Do people actually appreciate what you have/had done for them?

They do? shrugs

Do they even feel that itsy bitsy grateful for you for what you have done for them? hmmm...

Thought for the day.

dont worry readers, im grateful for the things you have/had done for me, in the past few yrs. thanks =3

2007-10-02T10:38:00.000+08:00

And so, i was late for work today! =X

yet, i was still in the top five list of the first few to reach the office first. heng ah XD

And.. i bought tix to Linkin park's concert thats going to be held in indoor stadium! Weeee. =X

2007-09-26T08:27:00.000+08:00

Yay! Im one of the 800,000 people who are issued with a letter, reminding to pay the fee for overdue books -.-

And guess how much i owe the National Libary Board(?) (NLB)?

$3.15. Thats right, 3.15. And guess WHEN was the book overdued.

year 2003.

roll eyes

and god knows where is the book now. LOL

Hmmm. i reminded myself that i have a couple of things to blog, but i forgotten it all now -.- only remembered this NLB issue. LOL

2007-09-20T08:47:00.000+08:00

...

And so, my friend got featured in today's Straits Time's Urban section. He was spotted at zouk last night with his clothesthatmadetheinterviewerturnedtolookathimonemoretime.

right. good job Shuan! hahahaha.

i feel like doing the commercial that goes like:

Casio watch - $80

jeans - $50

converse shoes - $80

getting featured in Urban - Priceless.

HAHAHAHAHA. omg, when he was asked if he thinks he's handsome, my fren replied this, I think im above average, but having the confidence is more important.

steady la Shaun. gjwd. you made my day...

really.

2007-09-14T20:16:00.000+08:00

接下来，是一个。。。很感动又会让您流眼泪的post...

大家看了，别感动到掉了眼泪喔！

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...

xxx, 我想你啊。。。

大概连自己都没有发现到自己的梦是什么吧。。。
其实真要说起来，没有任何优点的笨xxx之所以会吸引我，
xxx你从以前开始是一心一意想着yyy，为了yyy拼命对不对。。。？
这个啊。。。。。。
就代表希望喜欢的人幸福。。。
希望能够和喜欢的人一起幸福，不是吗？

不是为了自己，而是为对方著想的「梦想」，
这种梦想可以不是人人都能够拥有的。
所以我真的很高兴！
因为我变得跟xxx一样了！
然后。。。
谢谢你陪我到最后！
不，
应该说，
谢谢你看到最后。。。
太好了。。。
恭喜你，
xxx!
抓住了梦想！

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that was taken from a comic. if you guys want it, can ask from me. its touching when its abt to end. btw, if you are unable to see the chinese characters, pls do the following:

go to the View option, then Encoding, choose Unicode? or the chinese simplified, or traditional. lol.

2007-09-10T08:07:00.000+08:00

Early morning and i saw things that most of us does not like/want to see. sigh, me again! Nvm, will say later-.-

Nevertheless, i should recall what i did for the weekend.

Last fri(7/9/07), went to Peppermint, St James Power House. As i was lack the age requirements (*&^~@%^), 2 of my NS colleagues and me decided to chill out at peppermint. My colleague opened the first round of white wine. Forgot the name of the wine but, you can taste the grapes more than the alcohol content itself. all was fun, catching up with them and stuffs. swinging away the night, yo ah yo, yo ah yo, this is hokkien and got to know one of my colleague broke up with his gf during March. =/ their relationship was quite a long one, they were even ready to get ROM. sigh

So, after we(my male colleague drank 2½ glass of wine, the other female colleague drank 1 glass and me, drank 2½ glass of wine) finished our wine. my fren decided to go for 2nd round, /shocked. -.- so, this time, it was my treat.. of tiger beer-.-

and wow, you can really taste the malt and not like that normal tiger beer you buy from supermarkets. my fren explained that the beer here had been distilled 1-2times only. hence, the taste of malt. after finishing our beer(my female fren, can see that she almost KO from the wine liao lol), share cab and went home.

we entered a cab and told the uncle:

me: uncle, 3 places. kaki bukit bedok reservoir, tampines and hougang.
uncle: ... so, is kaki bukit or bedok reservoir?
me: um.. ponders bedok reservoir blk 1xx.
uncle: in a quite not happy tone ok, then next time hor, if kaki bukit, say kaki bukit. bedok reservoir, say bedok reservoir.
we: ...total silence

so, my fault? shrugs MY PLACE IS REALLY KAKI BUKIT WHAT! -.- aiya, wtf. who cares. will meet them again, maybe next month XD. then next yr nov, will meet them again to enter St James -.-v

Sat/Sun.
Game Game Game while trying to recover from red spots on my body by drowning myselfliterally with water to dilute away the alcohol in my body. sobs my pa called this beer mok(prounce mok in hokkien). i would say, i recovered like 80%? i still feel the itch once in a while.

and this morning, i saw that joker again! the one i mentioned few posts back, abt this guy's nose touching the door of the mrt. forgot/dont know? refer to the below post pls XD saw him board the mrt @ raffles place. a few stops after he boarded, he dug his nose like he didnt do that for N years. wha lao-.-... damn er xin lo.

~~some of you will choose not to look at him. but i kept on looking at him, cos i really felt like throwing my punch at his face to break his nose. so he can dig all he want -.-~~

...so. what a weekend and start of the morning. How was yours? =]

2007-09-04T08:25:00.000+08:00

o.O i just read the newspaper, that linkin park is coming to SG for performance on the 13 of Nov. (´∀｀)

2007-09-03T08:21:00.000+08:00

sigh.

Im gonna miss my wireless keyboard.. in exchange for the newly bought Logitech G15 keyboard. i had so much fun with my old keyboard, we did it anywhere, from bed, to the floor and even the writing desk which is beside my computer desk. the only downside for my old keyboard, was the synchronizing between the keyboard/mse and the adapter. was quite a pain in the backside. but, was worth it for the wireless (and dont forget the batteries-.-!)

nevertheless, $129 flew out of my wallet, just like that!. At first, i was choosing between G11 keyboard and G15. if you noticed, the difference is just the additional LCD screen. You know la, i like fanciful stuffs. hence, the G15 won XD

the 18 additional buttons by the left side are for gaming purposes. its a macro, that does everything for you, at the leisure of just pressing 1 button! the only problem is, you need to remember which key is for which. where i have 8 lv75 jobs in ffxi, and i play half of them. -.-.... this is gonna be crazy. unless i write them down first, then slowly remember lo =.=

sobs. i checked the dictionary liao, its $80 bucks. well, i will buy this next month then >.>

As for the jeans, it will be somewhere soon, i hope. i have a kind fren who has discount for getting levis jeans in the month of her bday
~~a $20 voucher with her, and she offered to give it to me~~. wha, so nice of her XD haha, thanks!!

2007-09-01T08:25:00.001+08:00

...

What am i doing in the office on a wonderful Saturday morning?! omg! damn, when there's a first time, there will always be a second.. a third.. forth.. fifth..

siao liao XD

gonna get my logitech g15 keyboard and a japanese dictionary later after work in bugis.

okok, lets not side track. i should get back to work!

zomg! Trance master, Paul van Dyk will be spinning trance music tonight at @ Zouk!!!!

must ..... gooooooo....

2007-08-31T08:18:00.000+08:00

...

I forgot to bring my pass yet again. argh. then tonight's OT, how am i going to punch card?! cries! but! who cares. i will inform my boss anyway. haha

And wow, TODAY(no, not the newspaper) calls for a celebration. why? cos its pay day =X i can finally get the things i wanted sooooooooooooo looooooooooong:

JP dictionary

Levis Jeans

~~N73 Music Edition~~ You will have to wait until my current mobile plan is over baby.

Samsung 20" LCD

Logitech G15 keyboard

... and the list goes on.. blah blah. Any friends wanna meetup for a makan session >.>? now's the time boy. =D

2007-08-28T07:57:00.000+08:00

This morning, I saw this teenager standing in front of the MRT door. As usual, I was leaning against the glass panel. So, I observed that he kept looking around his surroundings and once in a while, me. Hence, I glanced around to see if there was any chio-bu(s) but, dont have leh.

So irritating leh, from Raffles Place station till the both of us alighted at Bunoa Vista MRT. He has this relatively long mustache(sp) which was touching the top of his lips. Ok, all these doesnt matter.

I noticed that he had the habit of smirking to himself once in a while. Siao bo -.-. Then, he would go *touch* the door glass with his nose. what the... i saw him did that a few times liao, faints. He had the tendency to keep his face damn close to the door lor, you can see the vapour it. -.-

Buay tahan, early morning see this kind of people. Back to work!

11:35
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sigh. seriously, how many of you gamers out there, are willing to bia cab(if possible) after OT to go home to help out in the game?

i have a fren who told me, "cant compare". ok fine, but all i want to say is this, i had been doing that for the past 1yr, forking out money from my OWN pocket to rush back to help out my frens in the game(FF11).

"its just a game, why make such an effort?"

its just like, you have a bunch of good buddies waiting for you, at some spot in Singapore before you guys start your event. would YOU make an effort to be there asap?

afterall, some of you will compare that, real life and game totally cant compare at all. ok, i accept this reasoning. i tell you why, i am willing to part my own money for this game.

bcos of my affection for these group of people whom i had did so many events for the past few yrs. until recently, activities in within this group of people are dropping so bad, that some(if not half) are jumping ship to another new boat. lei g dou ma? i dont think so.

but nevertheless, i still try to make it in time for the events with this group of wonderful people. whether they want to trust me that i have to OT/some other valid reasons, that i cant join the event, idk and seriously, idc.

they used to start their events at around 10:30-11pm. now? minimum 0000hrs. like huh? so late? come on la, if you all are going to wait for a handful of ppl, why not station some of our people outside of the area. so that when they arrive, pass the clock and we can just go in? (in this case, im refering to dynamis.) and even sky, so much easier. they can just make their way there while we are fighting the monsters.

as for other events like, limbus, salvage, etc. ok fine, i understand that you need to gather sufficient manpower before we head out for it.

you think you are tired, what about the rest of the members who joined this ls who 一起出生入死　with this ls? have you think abt them? how do they feel?

想想看吧.

2007-08-22T15:45:00.000+08:00

... z.Z

slpt at 5am this morning. dont ask why lol.

luckily, i had don to chat with me till 3-4am+. heng ah, thanks again!

woke up at 615, feeling like a zombie patrolling my house. -makes zombie noise-

then i had another hour of slp during lunch time. that reaaaally was....nottt.... enuff......

tonight got to OT! sian bo. sigh, nvm. for money, heck care liao! XD

2007-08-17T08:13:00.000+08:00

just a quick emo rant for the morning before i decide to push it aside for the day.

firstly, fuck la, you bunch of fools taking mrt at eunos. come on la, you fucking see the mrt is fucking packed. then stop fucking trying to squeeze your fat/slim body in la. besides, the next mrt is bound to come in less than 3mins. why not just stand there, and just wait for it? you all MUST squeeze in right? die die must get your fat ass onto the pitiful mrt right?

dumb asses.

secondly, i had a dream of MiDi last night. lol, yet again. one of my poly fren caught the both of us together and we were like, trying to stop him from bun-knifing us. i woke up and its 6am. many of you(which i doubt more than 75% reads/knows my blog) might think: "hey, this had been so long, why do you still hold on to it?"

i just... deep sigh ...dont know. its not that i have not given up. i just dont know how to explain this emo im experiencing now. call it reminiscences, call it stupidity, whatever.

im being represented by 半岛铁盒. the song that reminds me of her:

My Immortal by Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

No, dont get me wrong. i dont mean any negative/bad meaning behind this song. What im trying to say is basically, your presense still lingers here, and it wont leave me alone...

trust me, i dont mean any bad meaning, despite the song will make MiDi seems like so horrifying.

ok. end of emo rant for the last day of the week that went pass so fast! -.- im still deciding whether to come back for OT on sunday... bah!

2007-08-11T08:00:00.000+08:00

>.>

i know its been a long time since i last updated. well, been rather lazy to update la XD

all's well. been trying to find dates and reasons to OT. damn, i have become such a workaholic. hmmm, what to do? im poor ma. lol

and you know what? its been another week la! so fast... when you have work, time really passes damn fast. but the saddest part was,my aloe vera died(not died la, i realized it did not have any roots, so i pulled it out) on National Day... =/

why are some of my friends surprised that, "huh?! aloe vera??" shrugs.

2007-07-31T08:37:00.000+08:00

-.-

last night's taxi fee was a wasted one. first, i ended work at 2030 where i cant claim. cos, the company only allows you to claim taxi fare after 2100. ok, fine. then you all must be thinking; haiyo, then work until 2100 la, 30mins only. well, neither did i expect bus 92 to stop service at 2000. -.-' LL lor, last night's 19 bucks flew just like that.

2nd thing, KAOZ! I CANT INSTALL FF11 IN MY OFFICE! heard from my colleague that the IT support team have blocked all internet ports... even irc also cannot enter. -.-

oh well, fate la -.-

2007-07-29T10:56:00.001+08:00

finally, i finished the Deathly hallows this morning @ 530am. lol, i thought i would stop reading it at 130am. but as a result, i decided to bia all the way, lol!

nevertheless, great book that kept me following for the past few yrs. since when, im not too sure. now, i can finally concentrate back onto my game =b

wha, my eyes are damn heavy now = =. i want to slp ~_~

and tml is monday, sian -.-

2007-07-25T13:40:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.

this habit of inconsistent eating is starting to ... how do you say, bother me. my "diet" now is as such, drink milk in the morning before i go for work(0630hrs), then 0945-10xx(latest was near 1100hrs), breakfast, near 1245-1300hrs is lunch. 1630 is tea break.

now, my plan is to eat brunch(0945-10xx), normally is wanton mee. have honeydew and coke(caffine to keep myself awake) for lunch and eat a meal during tea break(which i always fail to do so, which results in only eating bread) so that i dont need to eat dinner at home. then when i reach home, ill just have a light dinner.

is it just me or is my body acting up. hmmm, and btw, in case you guys(girls?) are wondering why im not eating during brunch, lunch, teabreak and dinner, im saving up. =D lol. so, i devised a plan that, i will only eat brunch(to cover for breakfast and "half" of lunch) and teabreak( to cover for the "other half" of lunch and dinner). saves more money, isnt it?

aiya, who cares. and hey! i just installed a pair of speakers onto this computer! hehe...

now, the next and final qn, shld i install FF here -.-?

2007-07-24T15:49:00.000+08:00

Haha, this is damn funny.

zomg lol

haha! this is EVEN better

2007-07-23T11:19:00.000+08:00

wha, just got Ninja to 75 ytd morning. woke up at 6am, specially to bia it to 75. woot.

now i have 8 75jobs. another... 7 jobs to go (rdm@66, pld, rng, drk, smn, bst and drg)! prolly go rdm > smn > rng > drg > drk > bst > pld -.-

shhhhhhhhooooooo coooooooooooolddddddd in the offffffffffice......

2007-07-17T13:44:00.000+08:00

i had a fren who said this to me.

she commented that why continue to OT? she added that work is endless, so there's really no need to OT to finish your work.

well, yes i do agree that work's endless. but, to me, i feel that if you dont work on your current assignments, it will stack up. hence, your work will really be endless. lol

.... shit, i forget whats my original objective of wanting to blog liao. sigh. oh well, back to work.

2007-07-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

...

today is my 4th or 5th OT liao. wha bian, join havent for 2weeks, so much OT le. >_<

i dont know how much longer i can tahan, tho its not bothering me that much but still... my work place @ science park(bunoa vista) leh... zzz

oh well.

2007-07-14T09:19:00.000+08:00

fook you!

here i am, in the fooking empty office. where everyone else is at home sleeping. and me? all alone in this damn place.

thanks jason. for asking me to come back. im so grateful for you "concern" for asking me to come back to "rush" this project. thanks dude!

woke up at 630, reached at 8am. nvm, its just 1hr30mins wasted. im cool with that. 8am to 9:25, 1hr25mins, 75bucks of OT pay gone, JUST LIKE THAT. for asking me to come back to suffer in the damn office(in case you all dont know, i dont like the cold). thanks man, thanks so much.

there. done with ranting. im out of this place. ciaos.

sucker.

2007-07-12T08:58:00.000+08:00

Heehee..

Im blogging in my office now. work's fine here, period. have yet to do anything major yet. but well, so far so good. enjoying my work now. so fun! got to see so many cool gudgets and expensive, mind you. lol

oh well, back to work!

2007-07-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

yay!

got a job in Seagate liao. starting work this coming Mon. yay! finally have income, yay!

hope it will be fun there. meanwhile, i will postpone my studies till a few yrs later.

hmm, majority of my frens are pursuring their studies in uni. hmmm, why am i always the odd ball out? sigh, oh well. at least i have income. and i have a different vision/goal from them. who cares. lol =D

2007-06-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

Yay! i got a job in Seagate liao! as an associate engineer in firmware development!

Finally have ka$ching coming in A.Av

might be starting work on 9th of July. shrugs, wait for the HR to confirm with me.

meanwhile, im back to scouting! i will be having a PLTC(patrol leaders training camp) in Sarimbun... hmmm, the old memories with my old kakees. Kamarul, Khaliq, Kamal... wha, just like the good old days while i was in the old BDS.... reminisce...

-shakes head- nono... you cant let that happen again...

anyway, i prepared most of the things liao! hehe, time for some scouting fun xD!

did i say when is the camp? -refers to above paras- oh, no, dont have -.-

it will be this fri to sun. Wont see you guys/girls online then =b

take care! anything, feel free to call/sms la! dont shy =b

2007-06-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

i dont know why, my lower back(near the spinal core) hurts like hell. i cant even bend down to brush my teeth lo.. went for physiotheraphy(correct term?) to have my bone 'altered' back.. damn pain sia, but it works =DD

went for a 2nd interview in seagate again! this time, its purely related to computer hardware. and man, i tell you. i love this job. hope they will get back to me! =D

2007-06-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

Just went for Seagate's job interview for assistant engineer. basically, its abt hardware, being a tech savvy. i dont know if they will hire me tho, they asked me to wait for their reply. if i get thru, they will call me for 2nd interview. shrugs, hope they select me xD

2007-06-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

Its been six days since i had ORD... feels good, no need to wake at 0630, lol. but i guess, happiness are shortlived ba?

sister is pressuring me to find a job. sigh. cant i enjoy life again.. lol oh well, having a job would be good tho. salary and stuffs. seems i really need to get out of my comfort zone. =/

2007-06-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

Today, 08/06/07 will be the FIRST and LAST time that i will like the colour, PINK.

hee hee hee..

Well, as i was walking out my camp @ seletar ytd, the feeling.. was heavy. i will really miss these group(selective =b) colleagues that i had work with. so many to mention, but names are classified so.. =/

then this morning, as i was walking around the various depts, bidding good bye to some of the friends that i made during my course. the list of names just goes on and on.

I just want to say, a big "thank you" to all of you out there again! for enriching my NS life in this wonderful dept..=]

2007-06-01T19:22:00.000+08:00

Hello all!

lol, sorry for the long hiatus. was bored with life(serious, nth much interesting to tell you guys) and busy gaming.

anyway, JUST BOUGHT A NEW COM! weeeeeee

cost around 1.1-1.3k... sobsob. expensive sia. zzz

..ouch ouch.. my unlcer(sp?) hurts... its located right on my upper lips, in front of my "gate teeth"... -.-

best of all, MY ROOM IS SO QUIET AND NOT HOT LAAAAAAAAA! psych. XD

chat another day =b

2007-05-15T17:00:00.002+08:00

woot.

just bought Linkin Park's Minutes to Midnight and Timberland presents SHOCK VALUE.

=DDDDDDDDD

i was quite looking forward to their new album. once again, i can blast my eardrums again =]

as for now, im submitting my resume to DSTA to work for them as associate engineering. =D wish me luck guys.

2007-05-01T06:52:00.000+08:00

saw this hilarious ~~shit~~ clip by michael jackson. my best buddy pang, posted this on his blog and commented that this is first time the whole world witness MJ moonwalk. he furthered stated that, moonwalk however, was not invented by him. he only made it famous. lol

almost choked on my carrot cake when i watched this... lmfao.

...

i just had an old school dream...

i dreamt that i was back in my sec sch with my WHOLE classmates in it. location of class, i dont recall it but.. she was sitting beside me.. =/ and her close friends were around her too.

but the most vivid thing was, Yusri... with his "bu-ker-ti". seriously, i had long forgotten how to spell this guy's name.. and i remember laughing away so loudly that, no even 1 soul in the class laughed with me.... bah! -.-

there are times when i tried to crack a laugh/funny joke, where normally there would be respond... idc whats the respond is, at least make some commotion la. but in the dream, nothing, nil, 0 responds from the class.. i was freaked out =.=

oh well, what a dream for Labour day!

2007-04-14T07:04:00.000+08:00

46 days to ORD.

i still have 4 days of annual leave and half a day of OFF to clear. how? -.-

damn, i just hate it when ppl promised to meet me but dont pick up my phone the following day. come on la, if you agreed to meet, then have the balls to meet me and not not picking up my calls. dont get the wrong idea, im not refering to -xian- girls. notice the word, balls.

im fine if you dont want to meet me ya? you can tell me straight in the face. i dont give a damn. less work for me anyway. but i just HATE it when you break a promise between each other. it comes to show what kind of character you have. thanks abang, jiwa seh!

oh, another thing, sorry timo & dar(no, not darling. sheesh.). from today onwards, im not gonna share any info with regards to work anymore. thats too bad, i know that my previous upperstudies used to have secret between them and dont share with me but i dont know why that im reacting so strongly this time. oh well, cheers and out.

enjoy your weekend!

2007-04-08T07:44:00.000+08:00

yawn

-looks at the clock, 0745-

its been a long weekend? took leave on thursaday. then its a Good Friday, then the weekends. woot. appointments kept getting delayed and delayed, till the weekends! im sick of working on the weekends la.... i want to enjoy at home, playing my game and watch tv. =/

Im changing computer in 2months time. i got a new aloe vera plant beside my computer. my colleague said that its suppose to help -absorb- the radiation from the computer. whether it absorbs or not, aiya, i dont really care. who knows, when im hungry, i can just peel part of the aloe vera off and eat lo =.=

oh, another thing. i got promoted to LTA on April's fool! =.= soo... am i suppose to treat this as a joke? =.= NO WAY! ahaha.

im actually touched that i was congratulated over the OA email by some of my colleagues. total... 3 people... well, not that i really expect/want ppl to "congrats" me but.. 3 is really not the number i expected, shld have been more >.>

2007-03-30T00:52:00.000+08:00

hmmm.

it seems that one can never make everyone happy, right? lol, oh well. shrugs

ok, 2 more months with five days of leave left to clear. how abt that? im starting to feel it. nope, not the ORD mood but rather, the stress from at work. no longer from my bosses nor the workload itself.

my understudies are the ones who are adding to my stress level. its true how a master should never teach all his skills to his disciple. after teaching a few tricks to them and getting to know them better on the personal touch, they are starting to crawl all over me. seriously, who do you guys think you are? a pair of JC students from NJ and RJ? sorry guys, i still have lots of tricks up my sleeves. sad to say, which i did not teach to the both of you.

yup, i will have to admit. JC students have the drive to move on. they think faster than the poly gradutes. but nevertheless, poly grads are much more street-wiser than JC out there.

anywhere, anytime.

now, i only pray for my network and charistma to aid me in the next two months. thats all i ask for. i want to achieve my award, i want to prove it to my colleagues and my previous boss. i want to prove to the both of you that, even if i cant keep up on par with you buggers, i will not embarrass myself.

cheers!

ps. i just added the link to the story. thanks to whoever reminded me. =] as usual la, i try to update =.=...

2007-03-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

=.=

nice ma? haha.

half way thru. gaming now, intensive now XD

2007-03-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

...

i told myself this afternoon that i have lots of things to post at night!

but now, i forgot 70% of them =/

oh well.

anyway, i was heading down to boon lay mrt and i saw this petite girl board the crowded mrt. so, she was standing 45 degress to my left(i was sitting). so, i was trying hard to mind my own business but, you know la. men~ so, i stopped after admiring for 3 times of few secs. =X

so, we got out of tunnel and she got a seat behind her. i was listening to my iPod shuffle la. then i was looking ard the mrt, i saw 2 middle age man stepped in. then i saw them gorging at her... no need like that one lo.. then this eurasian who was sitting few seats to her left, was turning to look at her at times =.=

bah, who cares

2007-03-17T07:43:00.000+08:00

Fate(缘份) vs Coincidence(巧合)

In the dictionary, fate means power predetermining events from eternity; what is destined.

where,

coincidence means remarkable concurrence of events without apparent causal connection.

that you think, these two work hand in hand? are they related to each other?

i opined that in a waaaaaay, sort of la. everything has been decided(destined) in life, thats fate. you cant really change it.

wherelse, coincidence is pure luck, i should say. well, i dont know.

are people really fated to know each other? or is it just pure coincidence?

think about it =]

2007-03-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Ms tancy on her 22nd birthday~

may all your wishes come true =]

2007-03-08T19:34:00.000+08:00

finally, moved the story to another site. =b

wondering how come i have the time to move the whole story to a new blog?

cos ff11 having server updates =X

anyway, well..

exact 3 mths before i leave the Force. Happy? Sad? thrilled? *shrugs* dont know. =/ work seems to be crawling back to me. dont you just loooooove it? despite the fact that ppl complain of endless workload to clear. for me, i just wish i have tones of them.

non official work can become official work~

yes, im all psyched up to go all out for the remainding three mths.

a motto all these while, Success through Endeavour. =]

Jia you!

2007-02-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

...

i seriously need to curb my anger. esp when it comes to borrowing money from me..

oh god. pls. help me curb this temper of mine..

is it the fact that she still owe my $600?

is it because of my character/attitude?

or is it because...

she is my mum...?

2007-01-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

Eh... sorry for the lack of updates of the story.. due to the fact, im kinda busy this week.. preparing for my boss's farewell dinner etc etc

eh. sorry ah, i know i promised you that i will update tonight with a super duper long one.. but, im caught up with work now... pls dont angry... ok?

take care all..

2007-01-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

got this from pinky's blog. tmd, so hard to copy paste, kns! change your blogskin la.

Minus 1% for everything that you’ve done. Then repost as your %.
[ start with 100%]
1.Smoked.
2.Drank alcohol.
3.Cried when someone died.
4.Been drunk.
5.Had sex.
6.Been to a concert.
7.Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
8.Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.
9.Been verbally sexually harassed.
10.Verbally sexually harassed somebody.
11.Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12.Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13.Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriendbefore.
14.Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15.Been to prom.
16.Cried at school.
17.Gotten lost in a WalMart or adepartment store.
18.Went streaking.
19.Given a lap dance.
20.Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
21.Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22.Slept over at someone of the opposite sex’shouse.
23.Kissed a stranger.
24.Hugged a stranger.
25.Went scuba diving.
26.Driven a car.
27.Gotten an xray.
28.Hit by a car.
29.Had a party.
30.Done drugs.
31.Played strip poker.
32.Got paid to strip for someone.
33.Ran away from home.
34.Broken a bone.
35.Eaten sushi.
36.Bought porn.
37.Watched porn.
38.Made porn.
39.Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
40.Been in love.
41.Frenched kissed.
42.Laughed so hard you cried.
43.Cried yourself to sleep.
44.Laughed yourself to sleep.
45.Stabbed yourself.
46.Shot a gun.
47.Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48.Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
49.Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
50.Watched an animal die.
51.Watched a person die.
52.Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53.Pranked somebody.
54.Put somebody in the hospital.
55.Snuck into someone’s room and/or your own room after being out.
56.Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57.Dressed punk.
58.Dressed goth.
59.Dressed preppy.
60.Been to a motocross race.
61.Avoided somebody.
62.Been stalked.
63.Stalked someone.
64.Met a celebrity.
65.Played an instrument.
66.Ridden a horse.
67.Cut yourself.
68.Bungee jumped.
69.Ding dong ditched somebody.
70.Been to a wild party.
71.Got caught stealing something.
72.Kicked a guy in the balls.
73.Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74.Went out with your friend’s crush.
75.Got arrested.
76.Been pregnant.
77.Babysat.
78.Been to another country.
79.Started your house on fire.
80.Had an encounter with a ghost.
81.Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82.Been asked out by someone that you never thought you’d to be asked out by.
83.Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84.Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
85.Sat on your ass all day.
86.Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87.Had a job.
88.Gotten cut from a sports team.
89.Been called a wh0re.
90.Danced like a wh0re.
91.Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92.Been in a car accident.
93.Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94.Been told you have beautiful hair.
95.Raped somebody.
96.Danced in the rain.
97.Been rejected.
98.Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99.Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100.Been raped.
Put your “– % virgin”

hmmm... Im a 59% ver-gin. hurhur. im not that pure afteralll...... A.A

2007-01-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

Let me post something.. about what happened first, then i will see later if i have the moooood to continue story >.>v

So, i was telling my colleague's understudy what to expect and not in our office. who to look out for, the best friends(aka backstabbers), the bosses and stuffs. sigh, in the end, i taught him how to chao keng. =.=v

anyway, not only did i taught him how to chao keng... it seems that im teaching him... how to be/behave/act/ like me... =/ i know i shldnt be brainwashing him but.. *shrugs* think i will stop doing that.. its sad if the world has another me. =DD

and yesterday, i was driving and was about to turn right, and there were cars(one from each side, a cab was coming from the right) coming towards me. so, i decided to hiong. well, if last night, i didnt decide to step on the accelarator... thats it for me i guess. haha =D the cab was like 5m away from me before i drove into the lane im suppose to get into. then he *borrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr* at me for near 10secs! hahaah, that feeeling was.. *shrugs*

oh well, as long as dinner did not spill over in the car. who cares? =]

Happy 2007!

2006-12-31T23:51:00.000+08:00

Lets take a break from storytelling. heh.

FIRSTLY! HAPPY 2007 PEOPLE!!! WEEEE (im so busy in game now, but its ok. still must make time to blog =D)

i have so much to comment about 2006 and my hopes for 2007 A.A

I am gonna list, my favorties and hates for this yr.

1) Song of THE YEAR!!! : Shakira- Hips dont lie.
Reason: Before i commissioned as from OCS, my bunkmate was playing his mp3 and we were just 4hrs before we step onto the parade square. then, this magical song was being played. and my fren go on it loud loud for the WHOLE FLOOR to listen! XDDD. OMG, that feeling was really... beyond god-like(lingo in dota). kk, enuff said =X

2) Song that helped me to endure thru taiwan-cum-Brunei: PCD - Beep.
reason: ok, its weird but, we were allowed to bring entertainment and so i brought my MD over. i transfered the whole of PCD's album in. and gosh, this song... kept ringing in my head, wherever and WHENEVER. LOL missions, to slping in the bunks, to R&R(means, go tour ard the town). literally, is everywhere lol.

3) song in my mind for the past 3years: mario winans - i dont wanna know
reason: i think it sounds stupid but, this is the song between the both of us. the song that links us together. oh well.

4) song i love since BMT(mohawk company): Evanescence - My immortal
reason: i first heard this song when i was in bmt. my sgt was showing us a clip of sispec and what they went thru. and the bgm was this song. the clip ended with the sgts throwing their head dress into the air, their passing out parade. and i fell in love with this song ever since lol

5) HEY! HEEYYY! HEEEEEYYYYY! 6MORE MONTHS TO ORRRRRDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!! teeheehee.

that should be all for the good things.. now the unhappy events.

1) the biggest hoo-haa between me and my family. the MLM(multi-lvl marketing.)
reason: well, if you are are interested to know, sms or something ba. if not, just refer to the previou few entries. this event, really made me so pissed with my brother, and even(well, almost) my family.

2) i failed to perform well my duty as CPC(cadet platoon commander) during my mission in taiwan. i lost grip of myself, my emotions, my temper here. i just feel like giving up hope on everything.. however, i was still able to pull thru it. this is 1 thing i will nv forget in my life.

3) as usual, i managed to seperate myself from some of my friends, again. each yr sure have new ppl to pull away from. lol.

4) WAR DIDNT REACH 75 BEFORE 2007 LA!!! WHA LAOZZZ!! I THOUHGHT CAN ONE LOR! but anyway, thats not what i want to say. LOL. er, i know i made alot of ppl disappointed this yr(as expected). some, i cant be bothered to deal with them.. theres one, just one im very concerned abt. 4 yrs, its been so long, so long..

i guess, thats all ba. nth much happened for me anyway. happy 2007 ppl! i go bath, then slp liao! tml morning, wake up early and bia game again! =DDD

to frens to who just fallen out of love: pls, dont give up on yourself. move on, time dont stop for you. why give up the whole forest for a tree? =]

to ppl whom i stopped contacting to all of a sudden: im sorry, but this is me. you did nth wrong, its me. ppl like me, best not to have. =] BUT, i still remember you all one de hor! =/

to my 2 greatest buddies in my 21(..no, 1 is 8yrs, the other is 4yrs, the former flying high in sky, the latter swimming deep in sea): im really glad both of you stood(not really la but.. Xb) by me thru the MLM crisis. im happy that you are actually willing to fork out that sum of money for me. and im grateful, even tho i didnt in the end. =] thanks a lot

to the new good fren i made in game this yr: zhu. =.= 07 le, ng young jor. sing less K la, ok? w. or g dou lei gei singing ho ging but.. Xb and, your guo yu is improving le wor o.o XDDD hehe, really nice knowing you. thanks for being there for me, thru MLM and many others... you shld know them yourself. =]

to you: stop rushing ya? i dont know if you still visit my blog, but doesnt matter. remember what i said, there will be a time, where you will hit your peak and stay there. same applies when you will just get sick of moving so fast. everything just flashes pass you, *blink blink* 6mths le, see what i mean? =] slow down girl.

to my bro: ... i dont know what to say. just hope you know what you are doing, thats all. my best wishes.

my sis: PLS, PLS PLS PLSSSSSSS STOPP CALLING MEEEE BABY!!!!!!!!!!! =.= omg, im 21 le lar! kaoz.

lastly and the most important person: Or, zhong yi lei. =]

my sincere apologize, if i left out anyone! >< trust me, you are not forgotten. well, at least starting from sec sch frens =D really lar! no one is forgotten ok? =]

im v tired now, go bath lo. ^^

2006-12-21T19:52:00.000+08:00

Sorry if i made anyone of the reader screwed their eyes to read thru the whole thing, my apologize.

And, lets not give people the impression, that me myself DONT have my own "lines" hor. here it goes:

曾经有一份真诚的爱情摆在我面前, 但是我没去珍惜. 等到失去了之后才来后悔莫及. 这世间最痛苦莫过与此(?). 如果上天可以给我再来一次的话,我会跟那个女孩子说:我爱你.

如果非要把这份爱加上一个期限,我希望是...

一万年.

I had had my best love. But i didnt treasure her. When i lost her, i regret. It was the MOST painful thing in this world. If god can give me another chance, i will say "I Love you!" to her.

If there is a time limit, I hope...

it is 10 thousand years.

2006-12-21T18:53:00.000+08:00

the following was sent by a friend of mine in FF11. i found it meaningful, hence, i want to share it here. its in 繁体, i will have a translated version at the end.

有一種愛……叫《放棄》

當你不再愛我，當愛你已成為你的負擔，當相愛已是一種痛苦，那麼，我選擇放棄。

放棄你，是因為愛你。因為愛你，所以不願看見你不快樂；因為愛你，所以不願看著你強忍內心的掙扎；
因為愛你，所以不願看見你勉強的笑容；因為愛你，所以願意放了你。

當愛已成往事，又何必苦苦追尋？強求得不來幸福，強求只能拉大你我的裂痕，只能加
劇你我的痛楚。如果你真的想走，我無言，只能任你去。曾經以為你是風箏，我手中握著那根線，無論你飛向何方，我最終都是你的歸屬。現在終於明白，其實愛你，就不應該束縛你。

“春花秋月何時了，往事知多少？”往事如風，不如讓愛隨風而去。當一切成空，惟有
回憶伴我。時間能沖淡一切，包括我對你的愛。

不願讓你看見我的眼淚，因為你會心軟，但你不會開心。因為愛你，所以不會用淚水強
留，所以放了你。你的心已遠去，我又何苦留下你的體？雖然我渴望天長地久，但如果這只是一種奢求，那我不如只求曾經擁有。曾經擁有過你的愛，這已足夠。因為有一種愛，叫做放棄。

放棄不是無私的奉獻。放棄你，這不僅是對你的愛，更是對我自己的呵護。放棄你，我
會傷心，但我不會後悔。讓你從我的生命中消失，是因為“長痛不如短痛”。

當我容顏盡老、行將就木，我依然不會後悔。因為曾經愛過你。因為愛你，所以希望你快樂。

有人說這個世界不會有永恆的愛情。你我之間，如果連短暫的愛情也無法存在，不如放
開彼此。愛你，就該讓你去追尋你的幸福。當你快樂時，我也會快樂。因為你的一切，我都在意。

如果你要離開我，我不會怪你，只能怪我自己，怪自己太愛你。也許是我過分的寵溺
讓你習慣享受，也許是我過分的放任讓你沒有責任，也許是我過分的愛憐讓你壓力重重
，也許是她美麗的容顏讓你迷向。只怪你我有緣無分。

當你想要離去，請別管我，你只需告訴我，你不再愛我，你要走。我一定會讓你走，不
會乞求你留下，哪怕聽見自己心碎的聲音。當你離去，請別再回頭。回頭是一種錯誤，
回頭是對你我的不公。去了，請別再後悔。

因為愛你，就該放了你。我知道，有一種愛叫做放棄，那是對你最深的愛。

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There is a kind of Love... called "Letting go"

When you no longer love me, when loving you has become your burden, when loving each other has become a form of pain. then i decided to let go.

Letting you go, is because i love you. The fact that i love you, i really do not wish to see you unhappy. The fact that i love you, i do not wish to see you suffering. The fact that i love you, i really do not wish to see you put on a fake smile for me. the fact that i love you, thats the reason why, i chose to let you go.

when love had become the past, why bother to pursuit after it? forcing it wont give YOU happiness. forcing, will only widen the wound between us and deepen each others pain. if you really want to go, i will not say anything BUT, to let you go. In the past, i treated you like a kite. the string that im holding on to, regardless of which direction you are heading to, i will still ultimately, belong to you. now, i finally understand, loving you, doesnt mean i have to hold on to the string.

“春花(flowers in the spring)秋月(autumn moon)何時了(when will it end)，往事知多少(how much do you know abt the past)？”our past, is like the wind. why not let our love be gone with the wind. when there's nothing left, only our memory will stay with me. Time will heal all wounds.

Not wanting you to see my tears, is because you will get soft hearted, BUT you wont be happy at all. because i love you, i wont use my tears to stop you, thats why i chose to let you go. Your heart is not longer with me, why should i force to make you stay?

even thought i hoped for everlasting love between the both of us, BUT if this is just a wish, then, i rather not have it. i once had your love, that is enough. this is because there is a type of love and that is call, letting go.

letting you go is not an selfish act. letting you go, not only is this my form of love for you, BUT also a form of protection for myself. letting you go, i WILL be heart-broken but i will not regret this decision. letting you disappear from my life, is because "i do not wish to prolong our pain".

After a long period of time, i still wont regret my decision. because the fact that i once loved you. because i love you, thats why i hoped for your happiness. once, someone stated there wont be ever-lasting love. between you and me, if a short moment of love DOESNT EVEN exist, why dont we let go of each other. because i love you, thats why i should let you seek your happiness. when you are happy, i will also be happy. this is because, i care for you

if you wish to leave me, i wont blame you. i will only blame myself, blaming myself for too deeply in love with you. maybe, it was due to my excessive Tender Loving Care, that made you got used to it. maybe, it was due to excessive protection, that made you feel that all will be taken care of. maybe, it was due my excessive love for you, that made you felt all the stress. maybe, it was his(her) beautiful face that kept you captivated. I, can only blame myself.

Because i love you, hence, i should let you go. i know, there is a type of love called 'letting you go', and thats, my DEEPEST affection for you.

2006-12-15T18:44:00.000+08:00

这两天,我只睡了三个钟头. last night have duty, 那我就一直在想,你会不会有事. 已过了足足1个礼拜,却没你的消息.我真得快疯了.

我也没好好吃顿饭. 吃几口就不吃了. 认识我的人,都知道我是个不爱浪费食物.

我没事...

2006-12-08T00:46:00.000+08:00

这两天，我一直在哭。我希望，佛祖会保佑你，快点好起来。我求求你

2006-12-03T00:22:00.000+08:00

还记得这首歌吗？

2006-11-30T14:11:00.000+08:00

.. before, i was typing in chinese, but know will ging type long. so, ng type in chinese le la.

Now, i feel like i have 2 personalities, tho its not split personalities(两种性格). i cant talk abt my work to my family and friends. i think this is subconsciously affecting my 'normal' self, making me dou ng will tell my friends/family stuffs ng(not) related to work. and sometimes, ie: at 1000hrs, i told A "...". then, at 1030, i asked A, did i tell you "..." ? I have a friend who commented this is serious Alzheimers(失忆症?)... dont know. *傻笑*

this is scary. am i keeping too many secrets to myself? now, i tend to forget whether i said/ask something, that i not even sure whether or(me) yau(have) do or not... i show a different attitude during work, home and to friends. best part, i cant anyhow post over here, or else... well, once again, its work related, i cant say... blogs at being constantly(每时每刻) monitored, especially for NSFs...

精神分裂? w and recently, my temper hasnt been good, once again. zzz. on tues, i slpt at 0300hrs and woke at 0600hrs. that whole day, my mood was totally ruined(毁了). then yesterday, slpt at 0100hrs and woke at 0600hrs. total 8hrs for 2 days of work.

lastly, 过这种生活，真的好累... and, totally not related to previous line, 被爱是幸福，爱人是痛苦.

~~快疯了。救我好吗？~~

2006-11-19T11:19:00.000+08:00

ok. that does it. you done it again. you just caused the the bottle to show cracks again. good job!

can you even pause the players? can you fcuking pause an online game? at least i told you when i can let you use the com. and there you go again, barking at me, telling me off. you call this an addiction. fcuk. if its addiction, i wont even fcuking go for your dumb bday dinner. i would have chao keng after i commissioned from OCS. i would have keng all the shit i can to play this game. this is then call addiction, you piece of shit. this is so bullshit la. do i plan to continue playing this game after i ORD? yes, i intend to. i paid for this game, this com. you? what fcuk shit did you fcuking do?

when ma borrows money from you all, you all kaobeikaobu. yes, i admit. i also hate it when she does that. but i dont mind. i dont spend much, other then paying for the net, FF11 and my makan. so, last night. both of you claimed these comlaining are called mai(2) yuan(4). fcuk you. if this doesnt bother/irritate you, you wont even fcuking complain. you all commented that, you all just hate yourselves, for not having enough money. ok, fine, if thats what you want to say.

you dont even fcuking PAY for my expenses la. ccb. who the fcuk are you? so what the fcuk shit you are my brother? so what if you have lots of experience more than me? i dont fcuking care. fcuk, you just caused the bottle to explode.

GOOD JOB WELL DONE. PWNED.

FTW

why is my blog always full of saddness and bitterness? this is so sad. who can help me? who can save me from all these fcuk shit? ... .. . what did i do to deserve all these? my previous life? ... .. ..

~~where are you when i needed you the most?~~

2006-11-13T10:06:00.000+08:00

wow, long time nv blog. lol. nth to blog actually. pure gaming these few days, or rather, for the past near 7 days. haha, i took off on wed, then leave from thurs to tues. shiok. haha. actually, im very 'confused' now. i no longer can identify between real 'signals' and normal 'signals'.. *sigh* pardon me, but i tend to think a lot. lol. anyway, if things should really happen... pls.. drop a fat 'signal' for some idiot to catch it... LOL.

best part now is... im falling(recovering?) sick soon.. sigh. maybe not used to this long break ba..

2006-11-08T09:40:00.001+08:00

The Right Kind Of Love
Jeremy Jordan

It's the right kind of love
It's the right kind of night
You're the right kind of girl

Hey, oh yeah
It's the right kind of love
Kind of love

Daydreaming about you baby
And it must be love
Girl you make my heart go crazy
High as the heavens above
I hope you're thinking about me girl
Because all of my thoughts are with you
My love
There's no reason to doubt me
Believe me it's true

Girl I know I can give you
The right kind of love
It's the right kind of night
You're the right kind of girl
And we're right on time
Oh now baby
You know we can't go wrong

Why you trying to hold back baby
Tell me what you feel
If you're having mixed emotions
I'll show you that I'm for real
What can I do to make you see
There's nobody but you
And girl
It's not magic or fantasy
It's simple and true

I know I can give you
The right kind of love
It's the right kind of night
You're the right kind of girl
I'm the right kind of guy
It's the right kind of love
On the right kind of night
There's the right kind of stars
In the right kind of sky
Oh now baby
You know we can't go wrong

Girl-
I got a heart that's true
I got the right kind of love
I'm gonna give it to you
And you got me romantic
Can't you see
I'm the right kind of guy for you
And you're the right kind of girl for me
I got a heart that's true
And a soul that's deep
I'll be the right kind of lover
Baby can't you see
I'm gonna treat you
The right kind of way
You know it
So come on girl stay
I got a love

It's the right kind of love
It's the right kind of night
You're the right kind of girl
And we're right on time
It's the right kind of love
On the right kind of night
There's the right kind of stars
In the right kind of sky

Oohh baby
I could do with a girl like you
I could do with a girl like you
I could do with a girl like you

See what I can do with a girl like you

It's you and me together
It's the right kind of love...

wha, this song... retro sia. haha, Beverly Hills 90210 Soundtrack wor. lol. but, it best express my feelings now. =]

2006-11-04T08:56:00.000+08:00

last night went for my dept's D&D. nv really liked to attend such events... bah. lol but, nevertheless, was not bad, quite fun. didnt win the 32' plasma tv.. kns!!!!! anyway, enjoy the pics.

Kenneth And ChongWan at Orchard MRT... -.-

Outside Hilton Hotel!

Me and Chong wan

Tiger Beeeeer! had 3 glasses of it last night A.Av

...he squeezed himself into the ballon... when he further pulled it down to his waist, *boom* >_<

Juggling with fire XD

Come on!!!! Eat the fire!!

Disclaimer: Anyone/anything you see inside is of ficitional and are purely coincidence.

2006-11-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

我爱你。。。爱到我快看不见我自己。。

2006-10-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

Christina Aguilera
Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

2006-10-28T21:59:00.001+08:00

...

cb, what do you mean by 'dun be idiot la...'

ccb. im trying to help you all in the fxxking game. just because you died a few times earlier in the day, doesnt mean you have the fxxking right to say me. yes, i know you are damn pissed, but still.

thanks for saying me idiot. i know you dont mean it. but, sigh, im human too.

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last min add in, at least you still have heart, apologize.. kns you. -.-

2006-10-26T08:43:00.000+08:00

Mario - Let me love you

Mmmm ..... Mmmmm.... Yeah....Mmmmm....Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Mmmm...Yeah....Mmmm..... Yeah, Yeah

Verse 1:

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man baby you
Never worry bout what I do
I'd be coming home back to you
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman deserves good thangs
Fist full of diamonds hand full of rings
Baby you're a star I just want to show you,you are

chorus:

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Verse 2:

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man baby you
Never worry bout what I do
I'd be coming home back to you
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman deserves good thangs
Fist full of diamonds hand full of rings
Baby you're a star I just want to show you, you are

chorus:

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

Bridge:

You deserve better girl you know you deserve better
We should be together girl baby
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

chorus:

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

repeat til it ends (about 3 times)

Mario (talking:)
Let me love you that's all you need baby

will you let me love you?

2006-10-25T19:04:00.000+08:00

this song.. lol, nice =] sorry for the long mtv. Xb

2006-10-25T18:45:00.000+08:00

last night, went to indoor stadium to catch this Hype Up record 'concert' performance was by the sg idols, ppl like hadi, jon, taufik, sly, olinda etc etc. they were like 100m away from me only la! haha.

not that i like them, but rather, i like the music they sang. but im rather impressed by onlinda. she got a wonderful voice. and i really got to enjoy the music last night. the last time i inflicted pain to my ear drums was when i was in poly. lol. music from the speakers was still ok.. but the... people ard me was like... haha, crazyyy la. zzz buay tahan.

however, i wont get to enjoy this wonderful experience, without the person who invited me over, thanks pan. XD

then went to 武bar in circular road. was previously in md sultan de, but 'downgraded' liao. was pan's god sis bday last night. happy birthday ah, da jie~ XD enjoyed myself last night. thanks again pan =]

Pandora

2006-10-24T10:29:00.000+08:00

Pandora

The titan Epimetheus ("hindsight") was responsible for giving a positive trait to each and every animal. However, when it was time to give man a positive trait, there was nothing left. Prometheus ("foresight"), his brother, felt that because man was superior to all other animals, man should have a gift no other animal possessed. So Prometheus set forth to steal fire from Zeus and handed it over to man.

Zeus was enraged and decided to punish Prometheus and his creation: mankind. To punish Prometheus, Zeus chained him in unbreakable fetters and set an eagle over him to eat his liver each day, as the eagle is Zeus's sacred animal. Prometheus was an immortal, so the liver grew back every day, but he was still tormented daily from the pain, until he was freed by Heracles during The Twelve Labours. Another possible reason for Prometheus' torment was because he knew which of Zeus' wives would bear a child who would eventually overthrow Zeus. Zeus commanded that Prometheus reveal the name of the mother, but Prometheus refused, instead choosing to suffer the punishment.

To punish mankind, Zeus ordered the other gods to make Pandora as a poisoned gift for man. Pandora was given several traits from the different gods: Hephaestus molded her out of clay and gave her form; Athena clothed her and the Charites adorned her with necklaces made by Hephaestus; Aphrodite gave her beauty; Apollo gave her musical talent and a gift for healing; Demeter taught her to tend a garden; Poseidon gave her a pearl necklace and the ability to never drown; Zeus made her idle, mischievous, and foolish; Hera gave her curiosity; Hermes gave her cunning, boldness and charm. Thus the name Pandora—"all gifts"—in Hesiod's version derives from the fact that she received gifts from all deities.

Pandora by John William Waterhouse, 1896The most significant of these gifts, however, was a pithos or storage jar,[1] given to Pandora either by Hermes or Zeus. Before he was chained to the rock, Prometheus had warned Epimetheus not to take any gifts from the gods. Epimetheus did not listen to his brother, however, and when Pandora arrived, he fell in love with her. Hermes told him that Pandora was a gift to the titan from Zeus, and he warned Epimetheus not to open the jar, which was Pandora's dowry.

Until then, mankind had lived a life in a paradise without worry. Epimetheus told Pandora never to open the jar she had received from Zeus. However, Pandora's curiosity got the better of her and she opened it, releasing all the misfortunes of mankind (plague, sorrow, poverty, crime, despair, greed, vice, old age, sickness, insanity, spite, passion, famine, deceit, etc.). Once opened, she shut it in time to keep one thing in the jar: hope 1. The world remained extremely bleak for an unspecified interval, until Pandora "chanced" to revisit the box again, at which point Hope fluttered out. Thus, mankind always has hope in times of evil.

In another, more philosophical version of the myth, hope (Elpis) is considered the worst of the potential evils, because it is equated with terrifying foreknowledge. By preventing hope from escaping the jar, Pandora in a sense saves the world from the worst damage.

2006-10-22T13:15:00.000+08:00

went to watch Dead or Alive last night.

... lol. ok la, not very nice, neither is it bad. maybe 5/10 ba? lol

want to watch 死亡笔记~ all watched liao. sianz.

heh heh, looking forward to this coming week, took off on thurs and fri =X today is 22... i think that this month passed by rather fast... suddenly so many things happened... MLM is on the top list ba? lol. sigh.

*i think communication is the most impt now... =] *

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Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area.
Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?
Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.
Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???
Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.
Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).

A few minutes later...

Student : I'm back.
Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.
Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.
Teacher : That's what happened in real life.

What is the message of this story?
* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time
* In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back".
It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now, don't waste time!

~There Can Be Only One~

2006-10-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

alright, will make a quick post before i go back to gaming.

recently, i started on this new game call Company of Heros. basically, its abt WW2. its really got me hooked on... T.T i even stopped playing FF11! but only appear in ff for events Xb

this game is abt history la basically. so fun! lol. faster chiong finish, then can resume FF and gym... yup, im a history freak! Xb love sg history(tho boring but nevertheless, its our home!) and ww2 history... haha. boring nerd.

then, my colleague commented on my haircut. 'wha, calvin, your hairstyle... like... very... *me: o.O?* macho.... *me: ... =_=*'

me: ..oh.. haha..

sia la.. macho sia =_= lame ass. hahaha.

2006-10-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

Women need to receive
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1. Caring
2. Understanding
3. Respect
4. Admiration
5. Validation
6. Reassurance

Men need to receive
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1. Trust
2. Acceptance
3. Appreciation
4. Admiration
5. Approval
6. Encouragement

Above are the primary love needs of women and men from the book, men are from mars, women are from venus. lol

2006-10-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

TANK & Selina - 獨唱情歌

2006-10-15T17:18:00.000+08:00

lol

at gym:

CPL LH(aka ken aka cyrus) using his HP: hello, is this xyz?
xyz: yes?
LH: i want to check if i have duty tml.
xyz: your name?
LH: CPL (insert name here)
xtz: dont have leh. cant find your name.
LH: eh? cant be what, CPL(insert full name)..
me(beside him): o.o

bcos i dont know what xyz said, this is what LH said:

LH: huh? i now 3sgt liao ah???
me: .... o.O *stun*
*moment of silence*
LH: ok nvm, dont care abt 3sgt, so i have duty on mon ma?
me: ....... =_=

lame right, my fren zzz haha. kns, but anyway, congrats bro. =D

2006-10-14T20:13:00.001+08:00

巴甫洛夫做了一個相當著名的實驗，他利用狗看到食物或吃東西之前會流口水的現象，在每次餵食前都先發出一些信號，連續了幾次之後，他試了一次搖鈴但不餵食，發現狗雖然沒有東西可以吃，卻照樣流口水。他從這一點推知，狗經過了連續幾次的經驗後，將「鈴聲響」視作「進食」的信號，因此引發了「進食」會產生的流口水現象。這種現象稱為「條件反射」（conditional reflexes），這證明的動物的行為是因為受到環境的刺激，將刺激的訊號傳到神經和大腦，神經和大腦作出反應而來的。

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Someone(A) did a experiment, he imagined the scene whereby a dog was drooling before food was presented to the dog. so everytime, before A feed the dog, he will signal for the dog to come to him. A did this for a few times. then, he decided to give signal but w/o giving food to the dog. the dog, on the other hand, even though, realizing there is nothing to eat, he still drool.

from this, A concluded, after a few times of 'signalling for the dog to come when there is food', the dog developed the linkage between 'signalling' and 'food time'. therefore, the dog will still drool, despite the fact, there is no food for the dog when A is 'signalled' for food.

this is call, conditional reflexes. the example proved that, the dog was under the influence of it's environment, and this influence sent signal waves to the nerves and brain. therefore, the nerves and brain did this action.

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... weird to post this right? lol. actually, it is something like this:

you watch a certain sad movie for example. then during the duration of the movie, you feel that... certain part of the movie, actors/actress are sort of related to your life. thus, you tend to be ... emotional afterwards. cos, you are already relating yourself with that certain part of the movie le.

this is what i guess, is called, condition reflexes/條件反射

2323hrs

2006-10-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

Just got back from TM. went to watch World Trade Center.. nice show. recommended. =]

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看来，这瓶子快装满了
它也开始出现裂痕
原来，这瓶子有限度的
究竟，有没有人能阻止这瓶子爆裂？
它很累，也没想到，会有崩溃的一天

nicnic...:- パンドラ。。。あなたの名前..

助けて。。nicnic...(´Д｀;)ヾ

2006-10-07T12:20:00.000+08:00

...

The whole world vs (me and MLM)

sighz. why is this so. sad.

if i fail, i will take this as a learning experience.

what if i succeed? then good lo, correct? thats the general response ma. "if all succeed, good for your lor. we shldnt have stop you from the start." zzz

"if you fail, take losing 1.5k as a lesson." fine. i will source out my own 1.5k. if i make big bucks in the next few months, you all dont come bother me. i wont give a damn. okay, if i fail, i will LLST(lanlansuckthumb) lor, 1.5k. 1 and a half months of pay. at most, dont eat lor. just like the period i stopped eating for near 1 week ever since that thing happened.

i seeked alot of my friends' advice and opinions, all gave negative responses. fine. expected tho. if my parents are actually willing to let me 'lose' my 1.5k to learn a valuable lesson, means they expect me to fail in the end, isnt it? so, i will take it that they allow me to venture and yet disagree with MLM's method of working. =_=

now, the 2nd problem just kicked in. my friend is willing to lend me 1.5k(thanks so much =/) but, his ma super-duper disapprove MLM. she rather me spend 1.5k on studies or gaming even. zzz. haha, weird right? if my friend fails to persuade her ma by today or tml, it will be 2k starting from next week, as the company proclaims that this 'promotion' of 1.5k for the products(排毒美颜宝 is one of them) ends this week.

so, if i still cant get 1.5k by tml, well, it simply means, fate ba. 5years down the road, if my friends strike it big, i will not blame anyone. i will blame myself, for not being as persistant as last time. not going for something i want to do/achieve.

lets all pray for me that i get 1.5k ba, which is highly impossible. =]

good day all.

2006-10-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

o.O i dont know where these 2 cuts/scratches come from... weird..

taken before i meet my close buddy from OCS for a drink in coffee bean in bugis~

... stun... the sotong damn big la! from sakura in Tamp SAFRA

cute hor? this baby eyed the sotong for a long time liao... Xb~~~

最熟悉的陌生人

2006-10-04T14:22:00.000+08:00

还记得吗
窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你还记得吗
是爱让彼此把夜点亮
为何后来我们用沉默取代依赖
曾经朗朗星空
渐渐阴霾
心碎离开
转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞
是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上
最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦
心碎离开
转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞
是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上
最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦
我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀?
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦

2006-09-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

this house is under construction near jalan kayu~~ hope i have the chance to see it build up.

this was taken outside my camp. took this bcos the sky was light blue, then the clouds formed like a 'shield, wavey wavey type Xb

this, was taken in my camp...(shh..)thus the fingers.. had to camo from colleagues.

my dreamhouse~ the type i wanna stay in, or something similiar to it. shiok Xb

this is the side view~

then next to the empty hse, is this 'bunglow' whereby the 2nd floor is like chalet lor, shiok man... can chill out here...

this! is my fellow NSF hse... rich right.. tmd..

the one in front is the owner(or rather, owner's son Xb) and the one at the back is my upperstudy!

then his maid cooked these.. omg... yummy~~

fave vege!

fave too! haha

quote: If you wanna steal... Steal the moment that takes your breath away. If you wanna cheat... cheat death. If you wanna lie, only lie to someone that you love the most(white lie)

2006-09-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

1. 关于我之前所post的，abt没人sms我, abt我多麼希望有人隔夜会sms我？其实，我这么说是因为当我在ocs时，每次都会有人（不管是谁）会sms我。所以别误会...

2. 我对你好，不是因为我同情你，而是因为你值得我的关怀。所以，别把我的弱点当成是一种利用
这也不是针对任何人，只是想让你们知道＝）

以上是我的想法，别特意去想那么多

忘記一個人

2006-09-25T19:49:00.000+08:00

对不起nicnicｗ

以下的post, 是从nicnic的blog拿的..

你心中有這樣的一個人嗎？你們可能相愛過，你們也可能喜歡著彼此，
但是，為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起？
也許他為了朋友之間的義氣，不能追你。
也許為了顧及家人的意見，你們沒有在一起。
也許為了出國深造，他沒有要你等他。
也許你們相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。
也許你們相遇太晚，你們身邊已經有了另一個人。
也許你回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。
也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線。
不過即使你們沒在一起，你們還是保持了朋友的關係。
但是你們心底清楚，對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。
即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街，你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友。
他有喜歡的人，你口頭上會幫他追，心裡卻不是很清楚，你是不是真的希望他追到。
他遇到困難時，你會盡你所能的幫他，不會計較誰又欠了誰。
男女朋友吃醋了，你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友，但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定。
每個人這輩子，心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友，?
一開始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然發現這樣最好。
你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。
你寧願做他的朋友，彼此不會吃醋，才可以真的無所不談。
特別是這樣，你還是知道，他永遠會關心你的。
做不成男女朋友，當他那個特別的朋友，有什麼不好呢？
你(妳)心中的這個特別的朋友...? 是誰呢？
很多的感情，都因為一廂情願，最後連朋友都當不成了，常常覺得惋惜，
可惜一些本來很好的友情，最後卻因為對方的一句喜歡你，如果你沒有反應，
這一段友情似乎也難以維持下去，這也難怪有些人會因此不肯踏出這一步。
因為這就像是一場賭注，表白了之後不是成了男女朋友，要不就連朋友都當不成了。
有些事不是你能預料的，或許對方不在意，你們還可以是朋友，但卻已經不如從前的好。
也是可惜，也是遺憾！但還有沒有可能是另一種情況，你可能永遠都不甘心只是朋友！

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对．．．老实说，我很不甘愿我们不是一对..我又有选择吗？没．．但是，希望你看了这后，亲自告诉我，这是不是你要的结局...希望你会争取你所要的幸福..

0930

2006-09-24T09:26:00.001+08:00

张信哲 - 从开始到现在

女声独白：你真的忘得了你的初恋情人吗？
假如有一天你遇到了跟她(他)长得一模一样的人,
他(她)真的就是他(她)吗？还有可能吗？
这是命运的宽容,还是另一次不怀好意的玩笑？

歌词：如果这是最后的结局
为何我还忘不了你
时间改变了我们告别了单纯

如果重缝也无法继续
失去才算是永恒
惩罚我的认真是我太过天真

*难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在也同样落得不可能

**难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认你是我不该爱的人

如果再见是为了再分
失去才算是永恒
一次新的记忆为何还要再生

难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在也同样落得不可能

难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认你是我不该爱的人

拿什么作证
从未想过爱一个人
需要那么残忍才证明爱得深

Repeat *, then **

P.S. hope all can see chinese, cos i plan to type most of my posts in chinese in the future. lol.

time to hit the gym! long time nv go le. take care all! good day~